day 4

Today I discovered a new song (new to me that is), A-mei "原来你什么都不要". It's not the promises, not the 'forever', not the comfort, not the caring, not anything, I just want you to stay by my side a little longer. It's selfish, it's greedy, but that's what I want and hope for.

I have become more selfish. I have become more needy. I have become more obnoxious. I have become everything you hate. Why do I keep on doing this? Why do I keep on wanting more? Why do I keep on wanting to push you to the point where you want to escape and run from me? It's all an attempt for me to keep you a little longer, see you a little longer, and be with you a little longer.

Worthless...useless...meaningless...are those the words I should use to describe this wait of mine? They should be, however, I had long ago began my endless wait for a person and for an answer that will never come.