Day 1

It's only been one day, and yet the thought of knowing that from now on I will never be able to hear your voice again saddens me. Although the images of your face are still vivid in my head, but I fear that it will soon fade away. Never again will I get a chance to hear that "hey you" when you pick up my calls. I will never again be able to sit next to to you to share the joys and laughter of each others' company. There are still so many things I want to say to you and share with you, but I no longer have that chance to do so. I keep on asking what was it that I had done wrong? The answers are clear because if I had done anything right, I would not be sitting here asking for your forgiveness. I didn't do anything for you. I was never good to you. I regret the things I had done. I regret for having put you through so much trouble and torment. If there was another chance I would go back and change everything. I lost my friend...

I sit alone and quiver at the silence and emptiness that fills the hole that was once the home to my heart - the heart that was given to you long ago, and the one thing I have no regrets doing. The world will keep spinning, and everyone will continue to go on with their lives. No one will take the time to stop and ask me why am I just standing still. I know I have to move on and let go, but there are certain things that are much easier said than done. Change is hard, it's even harder when it comes and hits you without any signs or warnings. I must now learn how to let go and familiarize myself back into that time and space where you and I were nothing more than just two strangers living their own separate lives. It's a scary thought, but I know it's the only choice.